Frenzy
I don't know how or why, but I've managed to work myself into a complete frenzy about going home.
While I was excited before, now I'm just nervous and I feel like I'm not at all prepared to leave and meet anyone. All of a sudden I just want to hide in my room all day and watch "Australia's Next Top Model" on YouTube or eat myself stupid with food I keep stocking my fridge with.
All I've done the past few weeks have been shopping for souvenirs and I've bought a lot of random things to give away, but I'm worried people would be expecting more from me because I've been gone so long or that the cost of my gift would be a measure of my sincerity.
Isn't it supposed to be fun? :(
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